Sunday, December 14, 2014

Of course, how can I not see it?
All along, I've been fighting for you. Irregardless of what I may have said, in the fucking end I still couldn't leave you. I left my soul in you, and it's stuck there. You might've moved on but I haven't. I can't, I'm fucking rooted to your soul. Once again, you left me. Once again, promises broken. Once again, we're all over. & I'm fighting for you, once again. But how? How could I bring myself to trust again when it's broken over & over?
I don't know if I can bring myself to believe in anything anymore. It's fucking broken, like a toy. I can't be fixed.
It's all the same excuses as back then, this time you've done it a little more brilliantly.

I should have known, I should have. It's just like what it was back then. It's just like that. Apocalyptic thoughts. All this self-loathing and self-pitying I had back then is how what I'm feeling now.
I should have seen it. It's all empty (yet again) words. It might felt real but actually, it really isn't, is it? Your words, thoughts, stung me like a fucking needle. Sliced me up, bombard my heart with cannons and those canyons couldn't hold. Promise me you'll be better, then maybe I will too.

Now, what am I supposed to do with an empty vessel with no soul?

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