Comparison , Moving on & the date, 4th.

I'm not looking down on myself, but I think I'm a really bad boyfriend that doesn't know how to do sweet stuffs, surprises & so on. It may seemed like I'm not putting in any effort, but I'm tried. I'm really a novice when it comes to making stuffs like this, but really, I tried. Compared to blue, I'm a million ways off. I still have a long way to go to becoming an ideal boyfriend.

You said you'll never find another player 1? Haha, we both know it's not going to happen. You're having your O's right now, then soon, Poly life is going to kick in. You're going to find sooooo much more guys in poly, & one of them is definitely going to make you smile. Definitely. It's like how you're moved on from blue, & till then we found each other.

Things changed, but I want you to keep that smile up. Keep smiling on. Someone else will find your smile as lovely as how I find it. Damn, I really miss seeing your smiles. That smile that lit my world instantaneously, that smile that made me fall in love just by looking at it.

&&& Today's the 4th! So.. "No longer" 9th monthsary?! Hehe!

I guess the only way I could help you to move on is to really stop contacting you, stop being a bitch on twitter about how sad I am, & stop doing anything that relates to you. 

Lastly, I wish you'll be genuine happy. May you never have a difficult/unhappy/broken relationship again. Please hold on hard, love the guy deep enough to back him up, and to hold him back. I'll always keep a look out to you even though I couldn't talk to you at all. Hehe!

I love you, my silly pink. you will always be on my mind. :)

*edit: Oh! & I hope you'll find a taller guy! hehe. <3
** You said you wouldn't go back to the same person when you walk out, well I hope it changes, because for me, I changed. I used to be like that too.

Single sided love aren't the best kind,

but probably this is how I show love best.